The Living Water

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Empty your mind, be formless, shapeless – like water. Now you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup, you put water into a bottle, it becomes the bottle, you put it in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Now water can flow or it can crash. Be water, my friend

~ Bruce Lee

Bruce Lee said this when he was teaching his students how to master “Kong Fu” .  If we are like water, nothing will ever hurt us.  We take the shapes that is given to us. We just receive what is given and bloom in it. 

 

The Indian mother will tell her daughter this before marrying her away; “A woman is like water, taking the shape of whatever the container you are pour into. Your new container is your husband’s family.”

Water to Christ is living; once drink will never thirst. Our state of health depend how much we understand water. It flow from high land pure and sweet. We condemn and polute it all the way to the sea. Yet the salt in the sea cleanse it.. It changes into vapor and the cycle goes on. 

Water survive because of its willing power of wanting to survive. God created water this way: restored, recycled and reused over and over again. So that Life may continue to flowing. So that cleansing continue. So that wisdom of water is known to the wise for enjoyment.

Water is fluid, soft, and yielding. But water will wear away rock, which is rigid and cannot yield.

As a rule, whatever is fluid, soft, and yielding will overcome whatever is rigid and hard.

This is another paradox: what is soft is strong

~ Lao-Tzu

WOMEN OVER 50

 

When you are over 50, the shapes and sizes change too. They grow deeper into the brain. This is commonly known as” the womanly smell” ” The sense of a Woman” ” Elegant is an attitube”. 

This is an updated picture of me, at 61

A woman over 50 will never wake your husband, in the middle of the night & ask, ‘What are you thinking?’ She doesn’t care what you think.

 If a woman over 50 doesn’t want to watch the game, she doesn’t sit around whining about it. She goes and does something, she wants to do, and it’s usually more interesting.

Women over 50 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with their husband at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won’t hesitate to shoot you, if they think they can get away with it.

Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it’s like to be unappreciated.

Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 50.

Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 50 is far sexier than her younger counterpart.

 Older women are forthright and honest.. They’ll tell you right off if you are a jerk or if you are acting like one. You don’t ever have to wonder where you stand with her.

I am 58, I enjoy it everyday. I get to sit on the reserved seat in the MRT train. I don’t have to care how I walk these days, as long as I don’t fall down.  I just admire youth and their foolish ways.   As we aged, our beauty grow deeper and we no longer need to mind the little details of post and pose. Just being ourselves is a real joy. Our beauty outflow from our heart. This dressing may be weird to you. It is only suitable for woman over 50, 

 

Singapore – A Mirage that become a Reality

 

My first try on big walk with my daughter.

 

 

 

 

 

 

If Bhutan is the last Shangrila on earth, then Singapore is a Mirage come true. We have no water, We grow no food, we have little land. Years ago, Reader’s digest call us a Mirage. After so many years this Mirage is a living reality to her people: We created Newater and is marketing it to the world. We focus on trading and service thus able to   eat from the world. We recycled our everyday rubbish to create land. 

We don’t have many people either. So our present President; Dr. Tony Tan, said years ago that we must improve our brain. Singapore is now  an Education Hub. Topping in Telecommunication,  Airport and Seaport.  Being 57 years old I live through these transformations. I am an ordinary Singaporean and a proud one too.

An ordinary Singaporean speaks about 5 languages. I speak: English, Mandarin, Malay, dialect; Teochew, Hokkian and Cantonese. It is easy to pick up a language because we have so many type of people here.  In languages, races, and religions, we are a salad bowl, not a melting pot. A tropical Singaporean enjoy each other cultures and languages. This culture create so many silly jokes among us. We love to laugh at our own “Rojak.”lifestyle. 

 

Pulau Berlakan Mati – mean “no descendants” – was the old name of Sentosa. Sentosa means “Splendor” . The island is our only bigger island. It is enlarged by our recycled rubbish.  We are also joining up sisters islands to enlarge more land.  All our three Airports are also on reclaim land.

This is a dream come true for me. My first big walk with my daughter. We enjoy every moment of it.  It so much fun. So much to see and watch.  If you have been to the other Universal Studio around the world,  this one is the best. Because of lack of land, the whole place is so well planned. So compact and concentrated. See a lot without much walking.   Watch out for the “Mummy” who is still alive and yet taken by two god of death. 

My daughter lost her hand phone while in the excitement of trying on a special seat.  A fellow Singaporean pick it up and waited for us to call him so as to return us. I am so touch by his kindness. This is by large, Singaporean style.

This Big Walk is my first and its such a joy to walk with my daughter, its her turn to take care of the details. I just enjoy like a child.

 

 

What is the meaning of Happiness to me.

Some pursue happiness–others create it.

If you cannot find happiness along the way, you will not find it at the end of the road.

Happiness is not something you have in your hands; it is something you carry in your heart. – from Tommy’s window – About a totally handicapped boy heard of Jesus, seek to read about Him and created a way of giving happiness at a time when the world knows that he have none.  His happiness was Jesus in his heart. 

I was diagnosed with Lupus at 25 years old, at the prime of my life. Was told All the “Big NO” on everything that I dreamt for;  marriage, children, travel. I have to hid from the sun, and people, – totally from life itself.  I took a long time to come to term with it. Then I said to myself : since I can’t be cure anyway, why don’t I try everything and then die knowing that I tried. The side effect of the drugs I took were bad. I am allegic to all Penicilin group and later life all antibiotic.  My only surviver is alternative ways. All the medicated Oil. Many form of “Qi Gong”. Tai Chi, ECK., Buddhism, Riki, Yoga, Crystal healing………( I become quite an expert this way).

Yes, I am happy for the chance to be myself.

When I get anger with people then, Lupus taught me, if I die tomorrow, I better go and said sorry.  I got stress, and Lupus told me, you bring nothing on earth and will not bring anything back.  I saw how follow patient’s journey to death. I told myself I can’t waste every percious moments that I am still able to function. I worried about my kids so much and fell even more sick. Lupus told me, they will out grow you anyway. Lupus seem to be my best companion. Lupus teach me to understand that everything, every happening are shadows. The only thing real in this journey is a walk with God and when it is over, be with Him eternity.

 Meanings are not determined by situations, but we determine ourselves by the meanings we give to situations.

~ Alfred Adler

Sermon on 19/10.2011 -Jesus as our joy

Jesus is in joy while carrying us on his shoulder.

Pastor begin the summon on Duty vs Pleasure; Holy communion is a pleasure to be with Jesus as one. Not a duty or a work to be with Jesus. “Praying in Spirit” is a joy to relax in the embrace of Jesus, not a show off, then complain that the mouth is so dry.  Being with Jesus is a rest but people treat it as a “Job” not a joy. This is a mindset problem.

There are people in the world who can’t buy joy with the money. By Grace we got it for free. The thing of God can’t be measured by machine. Only by the flowing of God's spirit.The amount is almighty. That flow of the spirit cause us to feel strong when we are weak.  This is so true.  Many times when I overwork and fell sick, I see God’s hand at work, I just have to surrender to His great love for me. He do it for me.

The more you think it is a job/a duty, you spirit is gone. We deceive ourselves in many ways that we are lead by God, actually is our own desires. During the night, darkness cause evil doubting.  Our sinful nature equal to double darkness in us.

The Holy communion is so important; In Exodus, when all the Egyptians morn for the death of their first born. Amid of their cries, the Jews are save in the cover of the lamb’s blood and having holy communion of eating the roasted lamb of God. The next day journey, nobody were sick. Everyone walk a long distance and not wary.

Everyday, we are not conscious that we are expose to “danger”, “death”, “super bugs” etc. The hidden hand of Jesus covers us. And we don’t even know. Put Jesus in the Centre, and his wisdom flows.  All His quality that is even unknown to us, cover us. Thus is our weakness, he became our wisdom and strength. 

The Trespass Offering

Lev 5: 14-16 When we sin unintentionally or man to man. A trespass Offering must be offered. This Trespass Offering of a ram is Jesus. When the ram is bought to God, we put our hands on top of the ram head and the priest prayed.  Out sin is then transfer to the ram and the ram’s righteous is transfer to us. Our sin is forgiven through Jesus. This is how God provide a way for our Trespasses. And when this is being done. God’s grace provide another 20% more blessing back. 10% to us and 10% back to the Lord. Therefore there is a 120% total restoration every time we go to the “Cross” of Jesus. God bless us 20% more through Jesus.

Lev6:1-7 When we do intentional sin to men. Sin again and again, the same thing apply for repentance. God deal with sin that way. e.g. We love Steve Jobs, but we hate the cancer in him. This is God’s love for us.

The e.g. of the two thieves at the left and right of Jesus at the Cross. both bad month him. Then the one at the right asked for forgiveness and Jesus give freely. As God, He judged Sin through his son and His heart surely broke. As a Father to His son, He love and forgive all the sin Jesus covered. God take a thief and transform him in Grace and blessed him 120% more useful to be of God’s glory.

Therefore, put Jesus in the Centre of our lives and blessing and grace will cleanse us over and over again.  

New Creation Church – sermon recap on 23rd October 2011- Jesus be the Centre

When we gather together as a body of Christ, Jesus is in our midst. As He has given us the Holy Spirit. We are united in this Spirit. This all inclusive Spirit is given to us by the Grace of Jesus, We did not work for it. We just ask and it is given. This is totally the Grace of God upon his creations.  So lets be aware that we are always in the Grace Zone.  How we treat Jesus is how God treat us. Every time we shared Jesus, people are blessed, healed physically or mentally. This grace is given to believers and non-believers alike. 

 

This is so true; we are made in the image of God and in our being, our soul needed a spirit to fill us. Yet what is in our heart attitude; When Jesus said  “one of you will betray me” All the other disciples ask ” Lord is it me?” but Judas said “Rabbi, is it me.” His respect of Jesus is already not there. 

 

Why do we feed on Him. His words is our food to nourish our soul. The difference between Mary and Martha; When guest Jesus came to their house. Mary give all her attention to Jesus to feed on his words. Martha on the other hand believes that when guest come she must make sure the house is clean and there must be lots of food and then not happy doing those chore. Do you think the guest will be happy. Mary is focus thus at peace. Martha is not focus. She think many things important to make Jesus welcome. She did too much and get upset herself.  Could this be us? We should make things simple in our Christian life. 

 

Pastor said: He once notice all his councilors were sad, tried and quite messy themselves. The reason is they were feeding on sin everyday, every moment. Thus they move into the “Sin” Zone. Out of Jesus Conscious. They use up all their human effort and thus, find the job striding and stress. Pastor taught them how to focus on Grace conscious, which is also Jesus conscious. When grace flowing freely, as we see ourselves only as a channel of God. Then the supply just get going and we are cleanse and so are the people who come to us.

 

Acts 4: 33 – 34 Everyone give out  grace and the power were great.. Psalm 106 – they ate the Lamb and the whole nation; young and old alike were able to walk for miles out of Egypt. John 1: 17 For the law was given to Moses, but Grace and Truth came by Jesus Christ.  Law vs Grace. God sent Jesus (Grace) to us. Eg. a 5 years old can easily memories Jesus’s words. but it is very difficult to memories the 10 commandments.

 

Grace is in God’s heart and He give to us.  Law demands and Grace give freely. We just have to realize this fact and claim it. The Emmaus Road is a real road to us.  Jesus is beside us. But we don’t see him because we are living in fear and condemnation, of ourselves.

 

James give examples : Abraham believe in God and God considered him righteous. No matter what lies Abraham said, still righteous in the eye of God,because Abraham is faithful with God.

 

Christian is to look Upward to Jesus. Eph 1: 7 We are forgiven of all sin by the measure of His Grace. Now that we are forgiven, forgive others too. We should be graceful because we are soak in Grace. It is all grace and by Grace we receive all the unmerited favor.    

My Emmaus route with God

I met Jesus a few times before Baptism. I do not know that was Jesus. At Baptism, He gave me a vision of what he wanted to tell me. 6 years later. He put in the words of that vision. Only when I acknowledge Him, did he reveal Himself to me. I was so touch and humbled by how He did it for me. An ever loving God.

In Luke 24:13 – 34 – Story of Jesus walked with two of his followers on a seven miles Emmaus Route. Jesus was with them, but they know not that Jesus was with them. Not until Jesus break bread with them and open their eye to see Him. This is so True for all of us believers.  The Bible told us, God with us. Jesus is our high priest always with us. The Holy Spirit, freely given to us is indwelling in our body. Yet how many of us really understand and am aware of this Good News?

This blessing that is freely given to us?  Even when we know, Yet we forget so too often. Our doubts of our position with God always create the problem of have no faith of God’s grace upon us.  This posting is the beginning of how God opened my eye to “see” him. It took many people to pray and evangelize to me before I said the “Sinner’s prayer”. Then I took 4 years to chose a church to be Baptiste. I think God run out of patience with me.  So while on a holiday in Kuching, at Crown Prince Hotel, God prepared a group of Christians, 5 days ahead of me. My husband and I were the only two non-Christians. The whole hotel were fully booked by the Watchman Nee’s Church – The Church of God – There were people from 6 Asian Countries meeting 5 days ahead of me. When I enter, I experience the “One Voice Effect”. So many people were talking here and there. But to me; It was only one voice.  My husband and I were baptised the following evening.  

This starts my 6 years wondering in the Wilderness with God, but not “seeing” God. Not until my BSF grand sharing on 1/11/2010.  Message from my grand sharing for BSF,  is only a 1 mins sharing.  Now I intend to share in details and find it very difficult to flow. It like many blockage with personal pride.  Some part are already reflected here and there in my other postings. It just that this posting is filled with battles I am not ready to review or revisit them. (this posting took the longest time to complete. It is edited many time.)

Tonight mark the end of my 8 years in BSF.  This 8 years see me from a Buddhist to a Christian. Then I begin my walk  in the Wilderness –  grand sharing  1/11/2010.  I joined BSF actually was to challenge my friends. Those day,  although I get along with Christian friends well, I never ever want to be one of them.  It is very troublesome. I mean the evangelizing part.  Christians believe that the whole heaven will rejoice just because of one soul saved. Also they just “con” people into joining them. No intention of  shepherding. so what is the use. Sometimes, I believed they have to meet their church quota for recruiting non-Christians. I was full with pride in my old ways. As a Buddhist teacher, I am into many other religions too. I really hate the evangelize part. I go to church to copy sermon diligently and observe those sleeping in Church. I took all the sermons to check list with Buddhism. Everything Christian have, Buddhist has too and explain it in even greater details. So there is not reason why I should change my faith.

During Buddhist days. We were also told that the Buddha taught 50 years but Jesus only 3 years not complete. So the three baskets of Buddhist teaching is greater then The one Bible. Buddhism is like the elephant footprint and the other religions are much smaller. At  age about 20+ a group of us built a Buddhist Temple. Our Master. B Dharma Ratana Thera named it Ti-Sarana, 90 Duku Road.  I promised myself to be good Buddhist and grow old there. That became my second home.  Since then many things changed as people’s ideal changed, the split cause the birth of Buddhist Library. I am related to this two places.

I was in-charge on the Flowers arrangements every Vesak. I am well respected there. As teacher, pioneer and one with a creative brain. There is no reason to move away from this comfort zone.

  My first Encounter – I am always sickly with Lupus, so a friend invited me to a healing outreach. At altar call, I follow my friend down to challenge God’s healing power. I feel a Great Warm Heat at the back, between my shoulders. I thought to myself “Wow, Elaine is powerful. She is able to give me such great heat”  the heat was comfortable. Upon checking with her later, she said she feel the heat from my body to her. So there was a person of Great Warm Heat between us. 

Every friend who want to evangelize to me will have a good debate with me, I always win them. I am a good Buddhist still. one day a friend said; since I have so many questions I should attend a 7 years study of the Bible.  I was invite to the Introduction Class. Was told there is a long wait. But was called to attend within three months.  I give excuse not to attend, a week later, I regretted. Three days later, they called me again. It is like God heard me. He forgive my half-heartedness.  It was around this time that my mother Idol worship became a bigger problem to our spouses. My Brother’s family and my. She continue trespasses into our family live. Our spouses actually hated her visit. I tried to convert her to be a Christian. The plan back fired. I was scolded my both my brothers and they restore more images in her home. Before it was just a painting of Kwan Yin now is statues, and “Kuang Yin’s” friends too. Then golden necklace were wore by each statues. A new table was specially bought for her worship. 

  My second Encounter – A man as stubborn as me encounter Jesus saving hand. – His story goes like this ; In the Hospital, after his cancer operation, the body laid to his right and left died. He was also walking very fast in a dark tunnel with a dark shadow in front. Then a white shadow interceded and said: “He is my”.  He ask to be baptize the next day. When he walked into my home, the glory of brightness was shining from him. I guess I am the only one who saw him this way. It was like the shine of Jesus was covering him. Three days later, I said the “sinner prayer”. I cried so much that moment. I wonder why should I cried so much that time.

Then it took me a long time to be baptise. About this time my mother got worried about me going to be a Christian so she kept send me thing-to-do-list when she die. She convinced me that I can only be baptise after her death. God make a turn on this event.

My Third Encounter – About a month after my “Sinner Prayer”. Friend Elaine insisted I should join their FCBC Church camp. As I got to teach that week end, I replace with my mother.(A 200% Idol Worshiper).  By God’s grace she received Christ the follow day. WHY?????? – God’s Grace. Because it will never, ever happen. But it happened. This also mean I am not to be blame by my brothers, because its her choice. 

 I am free to receive Christ too. It was really a great release on my heart. I could not decide which Church to go to. I only pray at my bedside every night for a church suitable for me. A church that do not tithe 10% to the church. (to me, is okay to give, but I don’t like to be restricted to 10%.) God also solve this problem for me. 

My Forth Encounter – God prepared people from 6 countries blending at Crown Prince Hotel.  God prepared their hearts 5 days ahead of me, for me. God chose the two best elders to speak to us that evening. This is how precious I am in God’s eye. The Church of God do not tithe openly. They do not pass bag for titheing. To them: The left hand should not know what the Right hand tithe. So if you wish to tithe, you quietly search for the offering box and do you potion of tithe. It was after Pastor Prince explain the beauty of tithing did I tithe as an overflow of grace given. 

This was my prepared speech for that evening. But I did not finish. That 1 mins was up. I sat down.

Then somehow John: 17:3 came: I “see” my own weakness: I am busy with everything. I want to know everything before I would be baptise. My sinful nature is: I like to know everything. I doubt about everything. I seek in all doubts with my own understand, not God. So, as a “Born again gift” from God, I receive a mind picture of a totally empty hollow rectangle; spreading from my heart to my waist area. I asked others many time. There was no good answer.  But John17:3 is God answer to me. – I don’t need to seek in vain, all I have to is believe that He and Jesus is the only true God.  I did not repent. I only acknowledge this “seeing”.  Then, like “Foot Print in the Sand”. God shown me His present in my life even before I was a Christian.

Thank you for this long reading. From then on, I always believed if you are chosen, you will be His child, in God’s timing. Of course, prayers from friends is like a reminder to God. That evening, I was in cloud 9th. I was enjoying my whole journey with God. I wasn’t not hearing all the testimonies that evening. I just am at awe that God should love me so much. I really don’t deserve it.  

New Creation Church – Sermon recap on 16th October 2011- The Grace of our Godly Father

 God’s grace upon King David

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God wants us to enjoy heaven while on the way going there.  By the grace of Jesus, heaven is surely our home and we will be there under His wings. The wealth Blessing is a wholesome one because my sin is forgiven by grace of Jesus on the cross. This is God’s plan to save us. The wholesome wealth: meaning wealth spiritually, physically and mentally.

John 17:3 is the only one thing important to us.  That we needed only this one thing : God is the only true God and Jesus Christ whom He sent.  The rest on earth, all the happening good, bad, sad, happy are but shadows that will pass us by.

The character of Jesus; when the name of Jesus is read, all kind of civilization, modernization happened. During World War II, England and USA were saved because during those days they were strong in Christ.  The whole Bible is about Jesus stories. Jesus was not kill by the Jew but all of us. This was God plan for Him. He came to die for us.  When Jesus arise, his resurrected body will be what we will be like, when we die.

From history the grace of God is repeated: the 6 days war of Joshua and the 6 days war of Israel. All by God’s grace. We as his children are in this world but not of this world. As the Jew who were in Egypt but did not experience Egypt’s plaques. They were saved, protected by Jesus’ blood while the angels of death killed all the Egyptian’s first born.  The difference is in the Holy Communion with the Lord. And our church is claiming all these grace of the Holy Communion. Exodus 20: 24 –26 God gives specific direction for building the altars because during those time there are not bible yet and God wanted to control the way sacrifices were offered. To prevent idolatry from creeping into the worship.  God did not allow the altar stones to be cut or shaped into any form.  Nor did God let the people build an altar just anywhere.  This was designed to prevent them from starting their own religions or making changes in the way God wanted things done.  God is not against creativity, but he is against us creating our own religion. No step – means no men effort; just come to God as we are.

 God Ten Commandments is a mirror of our sinful nature, what we really are.  God knows. E.g. Law is like the torch, showing the stones on our path but does not remove those stones only show the reality of the path. Under Grace, the stones are removed and the path is smooth.  The Law demands and Grace give. We all are sinners save by Grace. Grace gives strength in weakness. In Exodus, chapter: 19 men said they will obey everything that God said but they can’t do them. God knows their heart. God told them not to go to near God. But under the Grace of Jesus, All of us are accessible to God.

Chapter 21: 1 – 6 God want to pierce our ear to mark us as His. The pierce is also about Jesus. Under Jesus’ grace the Holy Spirit will allow us to enjoy Jesus. If we are not interested in Jesus then we only see Law in the Bible.   

Rev 4: 6 – 7 the four faces of Jesus are in the four gospels: Mathew is the Lion – King, Mark – the calf. Luke – a human and John – eagle.  The eagle means vision, Human – man intelligent through Jesus. Calf – servant with a humble heart. Lion – boldness as a leader. Pastor reminded us that this should be our choice of a husband.

Jesus at the Mountain during transfiguration, he could have gone to heaven but he stay to die for us.  Whenever we serve, Jesus multiply. Every service is honoring Jesus. Always remember we are serving the King.

Rev 1: 12-13 the seven gold lamp stands are the seven churches in Asia. Jesus protects them with his all-encompassing love and reassuring power.  Serve like Jesus.

Luke 12: 37 the servants who are ready and waiting for His return will be rewarded. Jesus will serve them in return. His joy is to serve us.

 He serves with a golden girdle. The best of service.

Ephesians 5: 1 –2  Watch what God does, and then do it, like children who learn proper behavior form their parents.  Moslty what God does is love you.  Keep company with him and learn a life lot love.  Oberserve how Christ loved us.  His love was not cautious but extravagant.  He didn’t love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us.  Love like that.

My Journey with God – though learning from the book of Prophet Isaiah

 

It is very interesting to note that the 66 chapters of Isaiah is actually the in-brief for the whole bible. They are all in poems. Consider Isaiah live after the Moses time and before Christ;  Yet his telling of the future was so real. It is good to know Isaiah before reading Revelation because it give you a clearer understanding of Revelation.

This year conclude my 9 years of BSF. The actual Bible Study Fellowship is only 7 years then they added Isaiah, now 8 years. I enter BSF in the middle of John. It was very enlightening to repeat John. John 17:3 “So that they may know that you are the only true God and Jesus Christ who you sent”. This is the most meaningful verse to me and God have created perfect timing for me to understand Him. 

I was born into an idol worshipping family. Like anything I do and everything I do. I must always satisfied my WHYS. So  I learnt about all the gods and goddness. My mother said we are Buddhist. Then at 19 years old I learnt that Buddhist actually follow Buddha and there are 3 baskets of teachings. The Buddha teaches 50 years compared to Jesus’ almost 3 years. Buddhism was told to me as, the elephant footprint and all the other religions are much smaller. During my 5 years studying Buddhism, I went into study on many others, Vedas, Hinduism, ECK, Islam. To heal my sickly body I learnt Tai Chi, Qi gong, Yoga, meditation in many forms.

I swear never to be a Christian. Why? because Christian always harass others to join them and they always said the whole heaven will rejoice whenever a soul is saved. I consider myself a righteous character and never want to be branded a “Sinner”. So I will never join the gang of “SINNERS” I am OK. 

My Christian friends invited me to many churches, I went sometimes. Just so that I can spot all the sleepers in Church.  I don’t like to waste time. So the time I spend in Church, I copied sermons and compared them to Buddhism. None of my fiends can win a debate with me about: “Why I must be a Christian?”. Then one of them said; since I have so many questions. I should join BSF. Which is so near my house. This is how I got struck in BSF. 

I begin with The Gospel of John: John tells of Jesus as a friend. I was Baptiste during a time-sharing holiday in Kuching. Crown Price Hotel. 2 years after starting BSF.  God prepare the people from the Church of God – Watchman Nee. 5 days ahead of me. I was baptize on my 2nd night, on holiday there. Also their last day of conference.  So, I  crossed the Red-sea and into the Wilderness -for 6 years.  That night when I got baptize, somehow the sharing was ; there must be a special feeling after baptized. My husband don’t have any special feeling.  I had: I “SAW” in my mind eye, every time I close my eye, an empty rectangle shaped at the left side of my chest area. From my heart area to the waist area. I asked and did not get the answer I want and then shame took over and I ask no more. 

1/11/2010, was BSF grand Sharing. I shared and when I sat down the Spirit of God touched me.  I suddenly open my eye to know the meaning of my empty rectangle. God told me all I learnt was not important. The one thing that  is important is ; John `17:3. Then with full understanding I thank God. Then the process of “Footprints in the Sand”  begin.  I saw that God was with me since young. He was there during my sickly Lupus period. He was there always. I just don’t see it that’s all. The following year, BSF studied the book of Isaiah.   I anticipate that Isaiah must be for me too. And true enough the whole year was to point to my foolishness. 

 

How awesome is our almighty God and how blessed I am to be chosen. I learn to be humble. I learnt to love God as he first love me abundancely.  I am also living in a new Jerusalem. For Singapore is heaven on earth.  At this present time when the west is in deep trouble, Many part of the world in suffering natural sufferings. Singapore is save. We seem to be that remnant that God preserved. We are blessed and a jewel in His eye because of Jesus.

Is there going to be a physical Temple? certainly not. Because, we in the transformation –  is the total of the temple.  We are the precious stones in God’s eye to illuminated the light of the Lamb of God. 

I use to wonder, a sinful nature like me, will I ever go to heaven and on Christ second coming, should I fear or am I ready? Now I am sure, Christ has know me through and through. Under his wing I am protected and in his refuge I will go to heaven.  The Law of God is the mirror to show how short of God’s righteousness we are. The Grace of Jesus is God’s gift to us so that we could enjoy heaven while going there. 

From my heart to the heaven, when Jesus is my Centre. I see everything through his eye. The eye of wisdom and everything is shadow and it will pass me by. 

Amen